游泳池，她曾經有個游泳池

她是我們這群人中最出色的，也是這個社會眼中，最成功的。

而她拿了因愛滋死亡的Ray的血和繃帶和保險套做成藝術品，賣給全世界每個大收藏家。

啊哈。

我們羨慕/自卑/憤怒

日夜輪流照顧另一癌症朋友
然後死了
然後火葬
死亡好巨大，我們好渺小，我們什麼都不是。 

然後她尖叫快來游泳池這邊

她開始奔跑然後在黑暗中大叫她把自己身體彈出去可以看見她在空中，在天空裡，她身體的弧線在夜空中劃的越來越高越來越高越高越高。

然後是

斷裂聲

沈默

嘔嘔嘔嘔啊啊啊啊啊啊啊喔啊啊啊啊喔呵呵呵嘔嘔啊啊啊啊

機會來了。
時候到了。

A pool, she had a pool.

Of all of us the most- at least in the eyes of this so-called world- the most successful of us.

And she used Ray’s blood and bandages and catheter and condoms. Pieces that sold to every major collector in the world.

Aha.

We envy/ self-abased/ angry

Day and night taking care of another friend in our Group

Our friend die

Our friend sent to the crematorium 

Death is big and we are small and rally we’re nothing. We’re nothing.

Come on she squeals come on the pool!

And then she’s running and whooping through the darkness sky and she launches herself and you can just see her up in the sky, up against the sky, the arc of her body through the night sky up and up and up and up.

And then 

The crack 

The silence

Aaaaaagggghooooowoooowooowwwwwwwww

Excitement. Something we can organize.